Unbelievable!

Sometimes I can't believe this is where I'm at in life.

I find myself walking into the nursery and just staring. Could I really be married for almost 3 years now? With a little boy on the way? Not to mention, working at a hospital as an RN.

Most of the time I still feel like the 16 year old girl in my room writing letters to my future husband. Like the confused college student trying to decide how and where and I'd get my nursing degree. Like the stressed out nursing student that has another test to study for. To the girl who thought she was chubby then- HA! :)

So much of my prayers and time with God was spent asking for guidance in waiting for and finding the right guy for me. For directing my pathes in college to get me where I want to be in a future career.

AND NOW I'M HERE.

Like I said, I don't think it's hit me yet.

I feel Gage move in my belly and I know he is there- I've even seen his face on ultrasound- but it's still hard for me to comprehend in 7 weeks he will be here. With us. Forever. Yikes!

And I still feel strange walking into a patient's room saying "Hi I'm Kaysi, an RN, and I'll be taking care of you today".

I am SO guilty of not giving God all the glory and praise He deserves! How faithful He has been to me! And how often do I forget on a daily basis just to THANK HIM?? Just a simple "God you are so good to me, even when I am so undeserving."

It breaks my heart that I let life consume me all too often that I forget to thank my Savior who has given me everything I have today.

Today I'm looking at where he has brought me and am so thankful for His provision in my life the past few years & bringing me to this new chapter. It's scary/exciting/exhilirating all in one.

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I'm 33 WEEKS PREGNANT TOMORROW.

Yesterday we got our 4D ultrasound. I'm not one to cry easily, but when he finally moved his little hands from in front of his face (we were all cheering him on) and we got a glimpse of the little guy inside of me- the tears were automatic. No, I wasn't boo-hooing but tears of joy came and rolled down my face. What a miracle it is to have LIFE inside of you- part me & part my husband. Wow. Another thing to be oh so thankful for.

(oh, and naturally, he is the cutest baby I've ever seen in my life! haha)

I've been feeling pretty good.

Sleep hasn't been a problem for me this whole pregnancy, really.

My legs ACHE. To the point I've thought I had a blood clot in one it was aching and hurting so bad. I guess it's the 12 hour shifts and the weight of being pregnant, but OUCH!

We got ALL the furniture for the nursery last weekend & all that is left is to put up the curtains, bedding, and wall hangings that I have for it. We love to just walk in there & stare. I love it, it's turned out so cute!

I can't eat near as much at once these days. I get super full rly fast & feel short of breath super easily. I guess he is getting big & I'm running out of room in there!

We have some showers coming up that I'm SUPER PUMPED for!!! I can't wait to celebrate this precious little guy with the people I love!

7 MORE WEEKS!
THE COUNTDOWN CONTINUES!

Weekend Rambles

I love Saturday mornings. Finally me and the hubs get to sleep in and cuddle all morning. It was particulary nice this morning, since it was a semi-rainy morning. I just saw him off to the shop, where he is going to work a few hours, and then we are going shopping to buy the final pieces of furniture for Gage's room! :)

LET'S CATCH UP!
Can you even believe that I'm 31 weeks pregnant tomorrow? eeeeekkkk!

Recap of week 30:

• The emotions have came on strong. I have cried 4 out of 6 days this week. Thank goodness I have an amazing husband who makes everything better...
• I have refused to step on the scale... I have also refused any exercise program the past week. Working 3 days at the hospital seems to do the trick, because my body has been HURTING. It's definitely an adjustment learning to be on my feet again. Especially with 20 extra lbs to carry around...
• Gage has been kicking like a madman ever since week 29. I LOVE feeling those movements and kicks- it's the most amazing/reassuring feeling.
• I made him a blanket, painted some frames, and made some wall hangings for his room this week. They aren't anything amazing, but it has felt SO good to do some crafting. Very relaxing for this momma :)
• The feelings of exhaustion that the first trimester had are definitely coming back. I'll rest while I can, as everyone tells me.
• All I can think about is kissing that sweet little face, and I cannot wait to meet our son.

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And in other news, it's been a great week. A crazy one.

Yesterday I GOT MY FIRST REAL PAYCHECK AS AN RN. After working so hard through school and not having a job for 2 years, it was a major milestone for me! Needless to say, I loaded Mom up in the car and we went to Springfield SHOPPING! I had prepared Ryan that my first check would be well spent on things I'd wanted for the past 2 years- and it was! Except I didn't really spend the whole check (not even half actually!)

I got some wall hangings for the big wall in my kitchen that has been bare since we bought the house! I can't wait to hang them this weekend :) they are so cute. I also got a lot of wall decorations for Gage's room, as it is still BARE. 9 weeks to get the room all ready for the little guy will be pushing it, but I think it definitely can be done. Have I mentioned how much I LOVE Hobby Lobby? I got basically everything except one decoration on sale. Most of it was 40 & 50% off- I love me some sales. It's actually hard for me to pay full price for just about anything!

I found some other scores- like some maternity jeans for 15 bucks and a nice top to go with it. Maternity clothes are HIGH ya'll, which is why I have wore basically the 5 same dresses everyday these past few months of pregnancy. I just hate to spend all this money on maternity clothes, when I (hope) will be back to normal sized clothes in just a few weeks.

I did go to Target and treat myself to a new eyeshadow set, mascara, eyeliner, bronzer, and lipgloss. I got a cute little makeup bag to put them in. They are nice, new, and clean.... compared to my huge bag of makeup I've collected over the past years that has eyeshadow spilled all in it, everything is dried out, etc. It's crazy how just a new lil bag of makeup necessities will make a girl feel soooo much better.

Ok, enough about what all I bought. I probally sound materalistic, but these few purchases were SO fun after hardly shopping the past few years. It made all the hard work of school and 12 hour shifts worth it. I'm blessed to be starting my career and finally being able to help Ryan out with bills and making our house more "homey" and inviting. And it does feel good to have a new pair of jeans and some new makeup :)

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Happy Birthday to my sweet sister-in-law Jess today! She is such a blessing to me, I couldn't ask for a better SIL or friend. I'm excited for her wedding in October- we'll have Gage to dress up and show off as he watches his aunt get married!

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Set Me Apart

A lot has been on my heart lately.

God has seemed be giving me a "wake up call" in my life.

The topic on my heart for the past few weeks has been being SET APART.

There are so many things that I, as a Christian, have became insensitive to in my life. Things that are not the things I should be thinking of, watching, reading about, etc.

Sometimes it's easy to go with the flow, become numb to the sin that surrounds us every day that our culture makes so acceptable, and forget that as Christians God calls us to a higher standard. Reading books like "Radical" by David Platt goes into detail about what the GOSPEL really says and that to be true FOLLOWERS of Christ we must TAKE UP OUR CROSS AND FOLLOW HIM. WE MUST BE SET APART. WE CAN'T BE A FOLLOWER OF CHRIST AND LOOK LIKE THE WORLD.

At one point in my life I had become really in tune with the Holy Spirit directing my pathes, convicting me about areas that were not uplifting and of good report... I threw away magazines, CDs, revealing clothes.... but somehow little by little they slipped back in. I can watch the news on the latest celebrities and be intrigued about their lives-- which are usually not godly or to be looked up to.  We can have a movie playing that has a small cuss word here and there and I don't find myself being as bothered by it.  I could go on and on about things that as a Christian I have to constantly be on guard for or I will let slip back in my life.

And lately, God has really put these things on my heart.... He has made me aware that He wants me to be more set apart. I want people to know that there are things as a Christian I don't do or won't support.

And it's not always popular.
Actually, it's not at all....

And it won't make you any friends to stand up for what you believe in.


Another thing-- you aren't being judgmental when you say something is wrong.
The Bible clearly says what is right and wrong. Jesus taught right from wrong. Not to criticize or make the people who were doing it feel bad, but to hopefully open their eyes to the truth so they may follow Him and find life MORE ABUNDANT. Life with true joy and purpose. Things the world won't give us.

There are a long list of things that God has put on my heart lately about how He wants me to be set apart from the world. It won't happen overnight, I have a lot of work to do, but I want it to be evident in my life. Even if it means not being popular or standing up for something when it's hard....

What is God calling you away from in your life by calling you closer to Himself?